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I'm still learning all the pretty stuff clearly you can see where I'm stuck if you have some ideas I would love to hear them thanks!!!!

I guess to start off this month Mataya was in the 4th of July parade and she LOVED it!!! She was made for parade!! most of the rest of this month is a total blur.. I have been working 10~12 hour days for about three months at my parents house getting things ready STILL and we still do not know when we need to move. I feel kinda depressed that I didn't have more time with the kids this summer.. I wanted to take them to the park and cuddle up and read library books and watch movies together. skipping that feels so sad. We did take a fun trip to Idaho for about a week and a half!! The kids loved it they came in filthy everyday before dinner and they were covered in masquito bites but they didnt' care.. They were soooooo dirty that their hair wasn't even the right color!!!! When I washed their clothes I sprayed them with shout and dust puffs would fly.. when I was done putting the clothes in my grandma's washer I had to was the outside of the washer because of all the dirt!!! The clothes came clean though and we hung them on the line. grandma has a dryer but she uses it in the winter. It's fun to hang them it's tradition and it drys faster too!!! Some of my cousins have kids now too and my girls loved it!! they all played together so well it was wonderful. Another great thing that I will add in for me so that I will never forget is that my grandma had a bad chest cold while we were there. I worked on her lungs (magic therapy) and took care of her and filled her humidifier and kept little things like that going. The first night out at the lodge while we were eating dinner we heard a pop and I went to the breaker box.. there was smoke coming out of it I called out to everyone and grandma said to flip the main breakers. I was too worried to think of that right away myself. Mom brought a flashlight and we used it to turn off the main breakers out on the shed to so that there would be no power coming in from the pole at all. While doing this we kept getting phone calls from Kristen and we kept telling her things to pick up and bring in to us on her way it got really kinda funny. Towards the end I told her to pick up some icecream on her way driving to the lodge I thought that it would be fun for the kids on our very dark night.. At the lodge the first night was my Mom and I Grandma Humble Skyler, Mataya , Alisha and soon to be Kris who was only coming for kind of a long weekend.. I was on my cell with Jeff while going out to the shed with grandma to flip the last of the breakers.. as we were walking around to the front end of the lodge the call was dropped. Grandma and I were headed in with the flashlight and Jeff stepped out from behind our van!!!!!!!!!! I shined the flashlight on him and then run up and just about tackled him!!!! it was sooooo awesome!!!!!!! I had already been in Idaho with Mom and the kids for about four days before heading to the lodge. The kids by myself aren't really all that hard but it's kinda draining.. nobody to really pass off too ya know?? Anyway I was kissing him and hugging him really tight!!! Then I heard Grandma say "Who is that?!?!?!?" LOL!!!!!!! Later she said "Well after a minute I thought that can't be Skyler!!!" LOL!!!! Jeff had also picked up a rose in Driggs!! Kristen had dropped him off at the end of the very long dirt driveway and he was walking up and talking to me on the phone. He said that it was really funny to him because he could see the glow of my phone as I was walking around doing things because it was the only light at all.. Later Kristen came back from Driggs and we all laughed and had icecream together. Okay now back to Grandma's health.... she got to sounding a whole lot worse at night. I asked her if she wanted a blessing seems as how Jeff was here now. She didn't want to be a bother and we looked and didn't have any oil either.. So Jeff asked her if she would like just a simple comfort blessing. It was wonderful.. Afterwords she cried and said "You are my angel!!!! You take such good care of your family and it just flows out to everyone around." It was so precious to me that she said that I don't ever want to forget it!!!!!!! I was sooooo glad to have Jeff's support that night and most of the time we are a seamless team!!! it felt soo good to have him there. I love him!!!!
My uncle Clayton got married!!!!!!!! My uncle Shannon was his best man and uncle Delvin married them it was funny at parts and beautiful too uncle Delvin did a great job. I had a really great time being with almost all of my cousins we played tons of really lively games afer all the little kids has much needed bathes and went to bed. We played the name game, human knot, mafia, song name game and many others. Iam the 1st of 15 cousins on my Mom's side and we have tons of fun together. So far the cousins have 13 kids with only 6 of us having kids.. and only a few of us live in Utah. LOL!!
As for the last few days....... I've just been felling kinda down. after reading the first part of my month I have to say that I'm feeling like a bit of a pansy!! On the way home one of my cousins inlaws had a horrible accident and her sister in law and father in law died also in the van was her mother in law and two nieces and a nephew. I know that my car has been driven by angels several times!! I feel for them and feel helpless to do much!!! I have listened to John Bytheway "five scriptures that can help get you through almost anything" I highly recommend it!! I don't recommend listenting to it while painting..... I was craying too much to see much of anything that I was doing very well... I have also been feeling that even though we will be paying my parents $1000 a month and I've been working soooo many hours and paid for all the materials so far... Even with all of that I feel that I'm invaiding and sponging off my parents......I don't know why.. I know that they will be able to do a lot of home projects that have been waiting for a very long time.. I just cant get feeling good.... The good news is that I have very lttle painting left and that I LOVE the colors! I need some touch up stuff and cutting in the colors on our room and to clean carpet and put in baseboards in the girls room and downstairs Oh, and Jeff is going to help me build a closet back inside the closet where my dad used to have a entertainment unit that is now back in the living room. For most of today I have been thinking about how great it would feel to lay down and have pillows all around and eat chocolate until I fall into a blissfull sleep!!!!!!!! Lucky for my jeans I don't have chocolate!!!! LOL!!!! Thats all for now I will add more pics later. I hope to chat with yall soon!! Congrats plasters she's a cutie!!!!